Battle Tapes

“Maybe when once you start cutting your teeth, you’ll start cutting your losses.” — Alive, by Battle Tapes

What if you cannot quit your job, because it's not really a job, it's society?

Applicable to many other kinds of harassment and abuse

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The below has directly been taken from Kenneth Wethues list of workplace mobbing indicators.

  1. By standard criteria of job performance, the target is at least average, probably above average.
  2. Rumours and gossip circulate about the targets misdeeds: "Did you hear what she did last week?"
  3. The target is not invited to meetings or voted into committees, is excluded or excludes self.
  4. Collective focus on critical intent that "shows what kind of woman she really is".
  5. Shared conviction that the target needs some kind of formal punishment, "to be taught a lesson".
  6. Unusual timing of…

I don’t seem to be able to find that out though

2 days ago I was released from a psychiatric facility. I was there for 12 days, due to what has been deemed a drug induced psychosis.

The series of stressful…

Everywhere I look I see eyes.

Souls haunting me, watching every step I make. Closely studying. What will she do next?

I don’t know what else to do

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Not long ago I was in the backyard of my house and I heard a child screaming. He or she yelled “Mum" and “no".

The police do nothing when I call them.

I don’t know where it came from.

I don’t know if it is someone messing with me, or if I just interpreted the noises incorrectly, or if there was a child being hurt.

I am unable to contact my son or his father and I fear for my sons safety.

I don’t know what to do.

I feel like I did when…

So things are getting pretty mental…

So, I’m receiving messages that my son has been murdered.

If that is in fact the case, which I doubt, but let’s just go with ok that’s true… well, the question would be: why?

Apparently, it was because I smashed a lamp and that lamp represented my son. I smashed this lamp inside my own home, on my own. And I smashed it because I am sick of (what I feel is) 24/7 surveillance, and harassment/abuse etc, and someone once said something about putting cameras in lamps… no idea how true that is. But I’m figuring this all out on…

Journal extract: May 5, 2018

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This is a part of an entry I wrote on May 5, 2018, in one of my 2018 journals. Looking back it was my way of trying to express how I was feeling and what I was experiencing:

“I feel like I’m playing a game.

I feel like I’m playing a game but I don’t know who I’m playing with or what Game I’m playing. That’s an easy one to answer though, The Game of Life, that’s what I’m playing. That’s what everyone is playing (just figured that one out). …

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Everything will be ok in the end, if…

Mimi Toya

Novice Writer | Mental Health Advocate | Mother | Music Lover | Superhero | Supervillain | All of the Above & Counting | Doing the Best I Can

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